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Sometimes I struggle with me... the person I am, want to be who I'm becoming. The leaps I need to take, the one I should take, the ones I worry about taking.

The lines that I can cross, the ones I have already and the ones that I should not.

Art is funny, freaky, foreboding and fascinating. I've always thought an artist lives in me... but he is uninspired. I can create good art when I have that, or when tasked with it. Its weird, in art in high school I'd turn out fantastic art, but it was always hey this is the assignment.

Now I know you can doodle and draw, you can throw it together but fact is that art should have a meaning, behind the point there needs to be a chaos that is assembled together in purpose.

When I saw the charcoal drawings of William Kentridge I was moved.

We also went to the McNay this weekend. All of this I'm sure has betwixt my mood.

http://wednesday-fic.livejournal.com/

Check it out... you can read about the fate of the grabby hands operative from QUAD.

Sometimes I feel like I should just kill somebody.

However, who would I choose, and if so, do they really deserve it, and if they do REALLY deserve it, is it worth the hassle of law enforcement or family retribution?

so then I think, fuck it.

http://news.cnet.com/8301-13772_3-10354821-52.html?part=rss&subj=news&tag=2547-1_3-0-5

This is a creative groovy idea.

So Friday night we go to Austin to pick up a friend. We stopped by old friends of ours on the way out because she was having a kid friendly as she put it bday party for her. It was a lot of fun and good to see her.

Saturday we woke up, chilled and hung at the house until it was time to go to the memorial service. The memorial was nice, right up until the minister got up and spoke his bloody sermon about death and everything... and it was apparent to me that even though she was a member of the church he was clearly not aware of who she was... so that made a lot of people VERY angry, myself my friend's mother, his wife... several other people my wife... We left from there after we said our good byes and get on the road and I hear a whirring noise from the car. I'm not sure of it but it goes away... well sort of.

We get on the free way and I hear sounds of rocks hit the underside of the escape and I'm even more puzzled... then the AC and power steering both go out, just like that.

End result... 70 dollars later, a gracious friend and working on the car for about 2 2/12 total part of that during rain and low light conditions over 2 days... and viola we are back on the road. Our main drive belt or the serpentine belt snapped because the idler pulley seized up and caused a series of events to happen that ended in a snapped belt.

So on Sunday we finally get the vehicle finished got to spend time with good friends again. Caught up with them, and their precious daughter who is getting big and is talking now.

We take our friend back to Austin and there is a wreck on I-35. It took us 3 hours and 15 mins to do a 1 1/2 tops drive... FUCK Me... oh boy.

SO good weekend, part of it bad... some of it really fucked up.

But some was good.

I will start this by saying, R A N T, that is what this be.

To all of you well meaning non motorcycle riding people, C H I L L. If you have A: Never Ridden, B: Rode for a VERY short time or been on a bike once a twice, C: Know someone who rides or D: Rode a bike more than 10 years ago or something like that, STOP telling us that we are going to kill ourselves, that you worry about us, that you think we are crazy or whatever you feel the need to tell us.

Stop telling us about your cousin's girlfriend's sister's boyfriend who was riding down the road minding their own business when they got either killed or maimed by a car... and that it was TOTALLY not their fault.

I don't care how you feel about bikes, I'm FUCKING SICK OF HEARING IT.

We are NOT going to suddenly wake up and go, "FUCK, you are right... I totally NEVER thought that it was unsafe, so I'm gonna sell my 10K bike that I still owe shit loads of money on AND that I won't get that much back for and then stop riding. Thanks for finally clearing that up for me..."

I'm SERIOUSLY sick of it. Day in and DAY out, I hear about it... random people tell me... people I know, I love, my friends and family... all tell me how dangerous bikes are... I get it... do you think you are telling me something that I don't know or that I've not thought of myself?

Honestly! FUCK people... we are NOT stupid... there are those that are STUPID... they are the cousin's girlfriend's sister's boyfriend... who was riding down the freeway no helmet in flipflops doing 120+ on a bike zip in and outta traffic... that is a dumbass... and well DUH, of course he crashed... do you think you can pilot a car down the road at that speed and NOT get fucked up?

So really. Just let it go... we are NOT going to listen. NOT, gonna stop... we know the risk, we taken them willingly and most of us do it successfully... we get on our bikes... we ride, we get off, we go to work, or to the store, or whatever, and then we ride home... In fact let's assume that in the last 46 months of riding which is what a SHIT load of days, I've had 2 spills... neither that bad, both MY fault... and NEITHER involved anybody else. Call them rookie mistakes... it happens... you ever wrecked a car? Statically most people have...

So really... I'm gonna keep riding, you keep talking about how I'm gonna die or get hurt, and you are just pissing me off and wasting breath... cause I'M not gonna stop.

http://wednesday-fic.livejournal.com/

Check it out, a new updated part of the story is posted.

http://news.cnet.com/8301-13924_3-10291582-64.html?part=rss&subj=news&tag=2547-1_3-0-5

From a laptop and or portal device format this is good news. Currently the biggest issue for laptops and portable devices is speed and upgradeable components. The speed is an issue, and will be for a while, the ability to upgrade is being addressed. The life of the product however will be greatly extended with SS drives, as in no moving or little moving parts.

Flash drive storage works well in a lot of ways too.

It really is an interesting and alarming time to be alive.

Other than biological parts, is there any difference?

Ideas, Speculations?

Is it mental - psychological or is it metaphysical - spiritual or is it all hardwire and programing?

I'm just in that kind of mood.

http://ars.userfriendly.org/cartoons/?id=20081212

Rhetorical question really... there was a time prior to the 21st century when i worried about death, I feared it I was scared of it. I can remember thinking about it and then having to think of something else because it shook me up too much to continue to think about it.

Until recently I was very content to exist in life not worried about death at all. I had made peace with it. FUCK ME.

Now I can't shake the feeling of my F-I-L in pain, crying, shaking in hurt. The suffering, the cancer eating him alive. I don't want to watch that in anybody.

Quandary thought... death is apart of life, life is apart of death... the world drains life from us and yet it breeds life and sustains us... so... is cancer / disease just another mechanism of life?

sometimes I should drink a beer and then ponder

Charles F Wilkins the 3rd died tonight in hospice care in Houston TX. I mourn the loss of his life and for his wife who is beside her self, rightly so. I celebrate who he was and his achievements and I'm grateful for passing as his last few weeks on Midgard saw much suffering.

He is survived by 2 sisters and one brother, 2 children my wife Opal and her brother Charlie, 3 grandchildren Little Charlie (Cinco) and Campbell. His cat Speedy will miss him and his wife will miss her lover and best friend.

Charles lived a varied and interesting life but died a Unix God who tended to the computers in the engineering dept for U of H.

Hail to you Charles Wilkins, may you be resting in peace.

Tonight we received a call from my father in law's wife about him. It looks like he has about a week or so to live... who knows for sure...

However I feel like he is going to die this week. He is not eating and well the hospice care facility indicated due to coloring and lack of appetite that its close.

I just want his passing to be quick, and let him fade without pain.

He said good bye to me that last time I saw him about a week or so ago.

He told me to take care of his girls, he hugged me told me he loved me.

I think then he knew.

Part of disconnecting from the pop cultural is to understand that 911 tapes released about dead celebrities is just wrong... and morbid. People are fascinated by the oddest things... and yet we can't see boobies on YouTube... weird.

You can watch a man blow his head off and hear cuss words but can't see a woman's breast ... odd.

http://www.neilgaiman.com/p/Cool_Stuff/Short_Stories/I_Cthulhu

Damn Neil is nearly as cool as they get...

This has been a rough year. It started poorly. It has had a few ok spots... but generally it has been rough.

My father in law is passing. As I type, the cancer is slowly eating at way at him. Well maybe slowly isn't the word. Death and I are rather blaze' in general. I fear it not. I'm not seeking it nor do I look forward to it, but I don't sweat it. I just don't like to witness human suffering. The degree at which my F-I-L is suffering is inhuman.

I've held together so far okay. Today ain't that day though. and now I just don't know what else to post...

miserable.

I now work, at least still work for the Knowledge Information Bureau. So far it is a very very part time, very low paying fun job that requires little effort for just extra scratch. The pay is roughly what 27 hours a month and you make like 100 bucks or so. Its paid per text, 10 cents or 5 cents. Obviously the high pay is for original responses and 5 cents for pre-used responses. So the concept of the KGB is a text us anything question service. Last night was my first night. It was hard at first, but tonight I think I'm better prepared. So we shall see... ck it out.

text: 542542 (kgbkgb) its 99 cents per text though, but you literally can ask ANYTHING, and I do mean ANYTHING, I've been amazed so far by some of the questions. It should be interesting to say the least.

http://www.codaautomotive.com/#/practical

DUMB DUMB DUMB, FUCKING dumb!

Why oh why do car makers seem to think electric cars are the wave of the future?

With a 90-120 mile range, plugs into any standard outlet. WTF? "90-120" are they serious? They say this is good for 94% of all trips. If I buy a car like this at $45,000 DOLLARS (thats right folks- 45K), even with a 7,500 tax credit and savings on gas... I will absolutely have to have a secondary car, or a contingent rental car for long trips. I can't get to Austin TX, on 90 miles, I can get close... but with a variable degree of 30 miles, that's a lot. What if I can't find a place to plug in?

I applaud innovation, but smart innovation makes more since.

I'm all for coming up with better ideas. But creating an electric sedan doesn't seem to me to be the smart idea. This isn't the type of car most people are going to buy for their family, it doesn't serve a total car function for a family. This is a commuter car. Now if it was a LOT smaller, cost oh lets say how about 1/3 of the cost, maybe. However at 15K, that's still not very smart.